da nak pose ghupenyer

kenapa bila da free tak dek bende nak dibuat aku rasa malas plak nak berbelog? time busy besok nak exam rajen plak aku menaip ayat-ayat sewel kat sini. ajaib betol. kalau tau dulu aku apply ijazah sarjana muda pengurusan belog. kompom degree aq complete tak sampai setaun, wu3.

sekejap je da nak masok bulan nam da, pastu julai. masok ogos je da start pose. eh, pastu rayer, wee, rayer rayer..tapi rayer skang da tak best nak dibandengkan zaman aq kekecik dulu. sebab dulu aku ade motif nak rayer, besela bebudak, kompom la target duwet rayer jew. tapi la ni bile da jadik matang sket duwet rayer da tak berapa nak bererti da bagi aku. da tak tempting macam dulu. so yang tinggal ape je? ape yang boley menjadikan hari raye aku terasa seperti hari raya? biskut raya barangkali..huhu

hadoii, sekali lagi tajuk entry aku menyimpang dari  isik dier, len kali tolong ingatkan aku untuk taip entry dulu baru letak tajuk, hokey?

da alang-alang citer pasal raye kite sambung jela, so, kalau ade yang perasan la, zaman skang ni bile raye kemain payah nak jumpe bebudak datang beraya rumah-rumah cam time aku kekecik dulu. tak tau la kalau kat tempat korang ade lagi, tapi kat tempat aku, siyes, sejak 5 taun kebelakangan ni, memang susah nak nampak budak pigi beraya rumah orang yang totally stranger. ape bebudak kat tempat aku da pupus ke? pernah aku bertanya pada diri, tapi kenyataanye tak, dorang wujud lagi, cume tak dididik dengan amalan beraye ke rumah orang2 asing semate2 nak duwet raye macam zaman aku kekecik dulu. nape ye bule jadik cenggini? time aq kecik dulu acara ni la yang paling aku tunggu2. dulu raye pertama je, abes besalaman, makan sume, kitorang adek badek gan membe2 jiran sume teros naek beskal. konvoi g kutip duwet raye. siap planning lagi tu. rumah yang nampak cam kaye kitorang serbu dulu. yang ala2 tak berapa mewah kitorang postpone sampai raye dekat nak abes (bebudak oke, mohon jangan pandang serong)

pastu malamnye plak compare masing-masing punye hasil, sape dapat paling banyak. (kompom la same kitorang 3 beradek, da mak bapak bagi same banyak pastu g jalan raye same, hadoi) 
huii memang nostalgik la bile tingatkan balek, rindu nak jadik bebudak lagi, g konvoi kutip duwet raye sesame. tapi ade drawback nye gak. bebudak dapat duwet raye sket, hakhak. so kesimpulannye, aq besyukor menjadi orang dewasa seperti skang, sebab orang bagi duwet raye lebeh sket. and most importantly,, aku tak yah kene kasik duwet rayer kat bebudak, yihaa! life is awesome! =D

a sweet escape

hello there! missed me?? no?? oh well, kesah ape aku, hahaha (ni namanya intro mintak penyepak, harap mahap kepada yg terasa, hehe) its been quite a while since my last post. gosh, i have so much to blog about, to fill you in with the details of my average-not so dull anymore-life now.

well, can you believe it? mak finally let me work! me? working? mak letting me work? to those who doesnt know my mak probably wouldnt understand this, but really, getting permission from my overprotective (im not complaining okay, haha) mother to work, was like being given permission to get married before graduation! isnt that sweet? me? working? its huge man! waayyy huge! i cant tell you how happy i am to finally being able to escape from home, and earning some money, (well, the idea of getting money doesnt really intrigue me as much as getting access out of the house and meet new people, seriously!) i am superbly happy with this achievement! wee~~ and as a bonus, i got to make new friends too! isnt that awesome? instead of being a couch potato, now i get to mingle and socialize more! god, i love u mak!!! ur the best!! hahaha

oh, to those who wonders, im now working as an assistant salesperson at pasaraya save n save, situated not so far away from my home. until today, i have been working for 4 days, and still on a probation period. oh and i only worked as a part timer, why? ........err because i couldnt handle working for more than 5 hours, lalala~~ urmm,, though the pay wasnt as good as working full time,but im still happy! first because i could sleep in (work only starts at 3 and ended at 7 pm everyday), second because all my co-workers are all very kind and friendly (i felt very stupid for being such a paranoia at first thinking that all the workers and supervisors will be super mean to me, and i will get bullied and everything for being a newbie, well, now i know that were just nonsense thoughts, haha) and thirdly, because i wont get stuck at home until my holiday ends, like always! aint that sweet lads?? hahaha, oh im genuinely in love with my hometown right now, for allowing incapable people like us to work! i really dont know what would happen if companies and shops doesnt allow undergraduates students to work during their semester break, we'd probably gone crazy peeps! or died of boredom! seriously! whew....
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urm,,,, but then, i just glad i have this job to distract me, well, away from sadness and loneliness, my cat just died 3 days ago... she died from an unknown sickness. she was my last cat you know. her name's miu miu. all this time miu miu was my only loyal companion every time everyone left me alone at home. she was my best friend, but now she's gone. thinking of miu miu's death reminded me of arwah atuk. atuk also passed away on May, a year before, also during my semester break. may he be put amongst those who are blessed and loved by Allah. atuk, ila rindu atuk....   miu miu, caye rindu kamu...

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p/s : i used to hate my phone because it's useless, the camera isnt functioning, the earphones are impossible to find (well, maybe there are abundance of them in China, but then who goes to China for earphones??) there's no clear signal for tv, the games are ridiculous, and to add to this awful lists, the speaker had went down a few weeks ago, making it impossible for me to answer phone calls without the use of the loudspeaker. but guess what, on a bright side, recently i'd figured out how to install e books into it. so now, i can enjoy hours of  e-books readings! through my once useless phone! that is just marvellous! oh, life is awesome..

uh okay, now, if you could excuse me, im gonna spazz on gikwang's and simon d's page. they are my lovers now. buh bye and im sorry for ditching you g dragon, hahaha (how could you stay loyal to one when there's lots of cute korean guys debuting every single day?? tuan is definitely impossible!! urghh)

-till then-

i want One HD!

it's a torture. a pain. i feel like being stabbed hard at the heart. oh my heart ache so much i feel like squeezing it with my hands. why? why the world has to be so cruel? the cynical world of the entertainment industry..sigh.

can you believe it? now we can watch top korean variety shows everyday through channel 393. astro subscribers can now enjoy lots of korean popular shows and dramas through the new channel called One HD. so what's the catch? humphh,,,, it's only offered to Beyond subscribers. yeah, life is unfair, i know. sob2..


talk about business strategy. obviously they're so good at playing it, huh, what did they expect? that more will subcribe to beyond because of One HD? well, they play it well then, because it did worked =P i MIGHT switch to Beyond, but concerning the fact that it wasnt me who pays the bills every month, i dont get to do that. translation : i failed horrendously in persuading ayah to switch to Beyond. aigoo

thats why im telling you earlier. life is unfair. it's discriminatory people! discriminatory. sob2..
but nonetheless, KBSW alone is not quite bad actually. if i had never known of the existence of this awesome, fabulous, mesmerizing One HD channel, i had lead a happy life knowing that there are exciting korean shows awaits me every day when turning to channel 391. but oh dear, honestly, it's very hard to resist the One HD, when i know they are showing strong heart,

star king,


running man,
and other korean dramas and variety shows which im too heartbroken to type.
mamma mia, i want One HD! =.=

diriku kurang normal!

dear blog, today i met my crush

cuaca hari ni terang, suhu dalam lingkungan 36 darjah celcius

ignore the scribbles, setelah menimbang dengan semasaknya, aku rasa this is it, akhirnya, pengakuan yang telah lama aku nanti-nanti untuk luahkan. uhh, ye masyarakat, aku akui aku ni sebenanya...adalah... cumil memang tak normal! tapi ketahuilah bahawasanya tak normalnya aku bukan la dari aspek anatomi atau physical appearance, tapi lebih kepada emotion disorder.waa!
kenapa aku rase aku tak normal?? berikut merupakan antara bukti yang aku rasa boleh membuktikan ketaknormalan aku :

1. aku paranoid!
benda-benda yang normal pon boleh buat aku paranoid. setiap kali aku berjalan melalui tempat yang ramai manusia, aku akan jadi sangat paranoid and fikir semua orang tengah memandang dan merenung dan menganalisa segala zarah di muka dan badan aku dengan mata yang memancarkan laser (paranoid tak ingat!). thats why i dont know where to direct my eyes when i was in public transport, or walking along a corridor or road packed with people. pernah ada sorang membe aku dulu cakap aku ni jalan menonong, mata tak fokus. macam ne nak fokus der?? da aku tatau nak pandang mana! tapi bukan ni je, aku gak akan jadi paranoid bile keadaan jadi gelap!especially bile aku ngah sensorang! macam-macam benda menakutkan akan bermain dalam pikiran aku, benda-benda yang tak logik nampak logik je pada aku. contoh aku selalu bayangkan ade orang gali kubur nak tanam mayat kat luar tingkap bilik aku, or dekat pintu ada lembaga berkelubung putih tengah berdiri tengok aku tido! wakluu!! aku boleh mati kalau kene tido sensorang dalam gelap! 
gambo antu yg x berapa antu yg berjaye aq jumpe, yg laen sumer bule wat saket jantong!

2. clumsy setiap minit!
aku clumsy dan aku benci!! baru semalam aku jatuhkan sepeket sosej dari fridge supermarket bila teman mak aku shopping barang dapor, depan RAMAI manusia, dan DUA KALI berturut-turut! ade mak cik tu da pandang aku dengan sangat sinis, "cet! manager supermarket pon tak kesah la mak cik! mak cik nak kesah kenapa??!!" jeritku........dalam ati. tapi keclumsy-an ku bukan setakat semalam atau hari ni je, tapi ia berlaku setiap masa! di mana-mana! even tika aku berseorangan di bilik jua - time exam week aritu je dua kali kopi aku jatuh kotorkan karpet ngan nota, tu baru kopi, belom kira kuah megi dan megi yang baru siap masak dan belom masok mulot langsong! (penyeksaan batin woo) pastu aku ni gak senang sangat tersadung! jalan sekangkang kera sikit da tersadung, (tapi selalu aku pandai cover lar, wahaha) kat tempat yang rata pon aku boleh tersadung gak, apekedehel?? waa sunggoh bukan ku pinta lahir sebegini!! sob3...

3. errr,, aku ade masalah nak pronounce huruf D!
ironic? i know right, since nama aku sendiri bermula dengan hurof D! senang cakap aku pelat D la, ade orang pelat S dan R kan, aku plak tak ley sebot D. bukan la bermaksud aku tak boleh pronounce langsung, cuma bunyik yang keluar tu bile dengar kat telinga orang laen tak berapa sangat ke-D-annye. aku pon tak tau nak describe camne, aahh nak tau korang denga sendrik lar!


4. aku tak reti/pandai/tau nak explain something kat orang
aku ade benda tu dalam pala otak. tapi benda tu tak terkeluar dari mulut aku sebagaimana yang aku nampak dalam pala otak. tapi bila menulis atau menghitamkan MCQ benda yang keluar tu sejibik lak gan apa yang aku pikekan, wahaha! aku tak tau, something wrong gan basal ganglia aku? atau aku ade aphasia?? (language disorder) kenyataanya, aku memang tak pandai nak explain something kat sesapa! thats why i make a horrible teacher, and speaker. kalau ditakdirkan korang nampak aku bertanding untuk pilihanraya umum 10 taun akan datang, sila penuhkan petak orang di sebelah muka aku itu dengan tanda X!!

SEKIAN. -Bernamahapantah-


gila bola

haha, orang kalau da fanatik, gila meroyan, camni la jadinya. derr, aku pon minat bola gak, walopon off side aku tatau tapi minat tetap minat. tapi minat aku takder la sampai nak bakar bendera nogori orang dey. tak bertamadun lagi tak melambangkan keremajaan, eh kedewasaan. hadoii tindakan macam ni la yang sebenarnya mendorong penghasilan  ramai arsonist2 kejam di negara kita. (pernah ade ke?? hurmm)


Penyokong Tidak Bertamadun

tak cukup ngan El-Nino depa-depa ni nak tambah panas lagi cuaca sekarang ni ngan bakar bendera negeri orang. kesian tuan, tu negeri beliau taw, isk2 (walaupon aku yakin dia takderk perasaan langsong pasal bende ni, cuz all that she cares about is her minho and du***ge) cukup-cukup la, biar jela orang seberang laut sana je yang bakar bendera campak taik ni, tak kan kite pon nak polo ye dak? dari polo kejadah jahanam ni better g polo belog haku, lagy elok, kan, kan, kan,warghaha

pikir-pikirkan dan selamat beramal, adiossaa

kenapa piring astro menghadap kiblat?

info ni pertama kali aku dengar bila tengah berborak ngan memember di satu petang sambil asyik berendam dalam sungai kemensah. curious, aku pon selidik la pasal ni. sumber dari teamlanun.com.


Mengapa Piring ASTRO menghadap Kiblat?


Jelas, Kaabah bukan sekadar kiblat tetapi juga sebagai pusat tumpuan manusia dalam urusan dunia atau kehidupan. Contoh yang paling mudah sekali, tentu anda ada stesen televisyen berbayar iaitu Astro. Pastinya setiap Astro ada 'piring para bola' untuk menerima maklumat yang dipancarkan dari satelit. Untuk mendapatkan siaran yang jelas, piring itu akan dihalakan ke arah Kiblat atau Kaabah. Kalau tidak percaya cuba tengok balik piring Astro di bumbung anda menghadap ke mana?


KENAPA BEGITU? Mudah saja jawapannya, Mekah adalah pusat bumi. Sama ada percaya atau tidak jawapannya mudah ditemui semasa kali pertama Neil Armstrong menjejakkan kaki ke bulan pada 20 Julai 1969. Di dalam satu temu bual di stesen TV Al Majid, Arab Saudi, Dr. Abd Al-Baset Al-Sayyed dari pusat Penyelidikan Kebangsaan Mesir mengulas, angkawasan pertama itu telah membuktikan, Mekah adalah pusat bumi.
Katanya ia telah dibuktikan secara saintifik semasa Neil Armstrong di dalam perjalanan ke bulan. Ketika itu dia berjaya mengesan satu radiasi yang dipancarkan dari bumi. Radiasi itu di dalam gelombang pendek. Situasi itu sesuatu yang pelik dan mereka cuba mencari jawapan dan membuat penelitian. Akhirnya mereka berjaya mengesan bahawa radiasi itu dipancarkan dari Mekah atau secara tepatnya dari Kaabah.


Yang paling mengejutkan radiasi itu bersifat infiniti (tidak berpenghujung). Apabila Armstrong menjejakkan kaki ke Marikh, radiasi itu masih boleh dikesan. Radiasi itu mempunyai sifat yang istimewa dan paling penting ia infiniti. Saya percaya inilah yang menhubungkan Kaabah di bumi dengan Kaabah di alam akhirat.
Bayangkan anda berada di kutub utara dan saya berada di kutub selatan,di tengah-tengah adalah zon keseimbagan magnet atau zon magnetisme sifar dan itulah Mekah. Kalau hendak dibuktikan boleh. bawa kompas ke Kaabah dan anda dapati jarum kompas itu tidak akan bergerak. Ini bermakna Kaabah adalah zon magnetisme sifar. Tarikan untuk ke dua-dua medan adalah sama kuat.


Hal sedemikian katanya, turut memberi kesan pada kesihatan dan umur seseorang. Sebab itulah orang yang tinggal di Mekah lebih sihat dan panjang umur. Tekanan graviti yang tertumpu di kawasan itu memberi kesan pada peredaran darah dan pergerakan biologi kehidupan.
Ini telah dibuktikan bahawa ia boleh memberi kesan pada hemoglobin untuk membawa darah yang mengandungi oksigen ke seluruh tusi badan. Bermakna bila anda berada di Mekah, keupayaan darah untuk membawa oksigen ke seluruh tisu badan secara semula jadi jauh lebih baik berbanding tempat lain di dunia ini," jelasnya


Pelbagai bukti saintifik dari kajian para saintis juga telah membuktikan bahawa Kaabah berada di "Centre of the earth". Jika anda berkesempatan ke Mekah Al-Mukaramah cuba bawa kompas ke arah Kaabah dan lihat jarum kompas tersebut tidak akan menunjuk mana-mana arah sama Barat, Timur, Selatan atau ke mana-mana arah kerana Kaabah sememangnya berada di pusat atau ditengah-tengah bumi. Neil Amstrong juga mengesahkan fakta ini.
Maha Kaya Allah, dengan hanya melakukan Tawaf kesihatan kita akan bertambah baik. Tidak hairanlah jika ramai yang mengetahui rahsia ini sentiasa merindui untuk ke Mekah... Bagi yang bukan Islam kaji-kajilah fakta ini dan anda pasti akan mendapat kebenaran-Nya. Marilah kita belajar ilmu dan mengkaji Islam yang amat indah ini..


SUBHANALLAH..sekadar berkongsi ilmu

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the moment aku habis je bace artikel ni aku terus kua rumah carik parabola Astro, subhanallah, memang betul mengadap kiblat. banyak lagi rahsia alam yang manusia tak dapat huraikan lagi. ilmu Allah itu Maha Hebat, tak ade tandingannya. semakin banyak kita belajar, semakin banyak lagi yang kita rasa kita tak tahu. moga hidup kita sentiasa dalam lindungan-Nya. Amiinn.

what is poignant?

currently im having fun listening to sad and beautiful instrumental music.
and im having this kind of feeling...a calm feeling, and when i closes my eyes, i imagined myself walking on a path surrounded with green sceneries and flowers, wearing white dress. the sun shines beautifully, the butterflies flying around, the sky is clear and blue. a perfect and beautiful day. 
have you ever had this kind of feeling too?


the music i listen to right now felt so alive it brings back beautiful memories too. and out of sudden, i longed for my friends presence.
im so used to being surrounded with a lot of people that when im at home i feel so lonely. i missed the usual laughters, the chatters, the hanging out time, the gossiping, watching movies together. the fun. the everything. and thinking i have to wait for another 4 months before i could feel the love and warmth again makes me feel so sad. so poignant. so...lonely. 

its weird though, how a simple piece of music like this could make you feel differently. sometimes i wish i could create such beautiful music too. a music that could change how people feel, how people look at their lives, inspires them. but then, i dont have such talents. not to mention the instruments too. oh and the ability to play the instrument as well, lol.

god, i miss them.i miss my friends. there's so much that i think i havent shared, havent told, havent done with them. if only time could be rewind. uh. 

p/s : if you dont know what kind of feeling im talking about here, try to listen to this--> final fantasy VII OST- aerith no theme (piano version) or this --> with love-once in a blue moon =) if you have time, try to look up for them on you tube, and listen to them, they are so beautiful you feel like crying. trust me!

random me

ding ding ding. jam antik gedabak di dinding rumahku berbunyik. menunjukkan jam sudah ke angka 1 tengah hari waktu malaysia. kat beijing agak-agak pukul berapa sekarang ni? mesti orang kat sana tu tengah berhepi-hepi, wee~~ semoga selamat pulang ke tanah air. tadi sempat berym gan rab, sean rab demam..aku pon baru je baek demam rabot, 3 ari x larat bangon, hukhuk demam rindu kowt, wahahaha

jadi, jadi, cuti aku pon sudah bermula dengan rasminya sejak hari isnin yang lalu. pulangnya aku di sambut pelukan dan ciuman mak dan ayah yang ku rindui, wawawa, lama da kot tak balek, tapi lama tak balek pon rumah aku sama je," mak, laen kali renovate la rumah, tambah satu tingkat lagi ke kat atas, tak pon buat swimming pool ke, baru la ila rase excited siket nak balek", kataku. mak ku menjawab, " amboii, banyak lak cekadak adek, nak renovate meh sini bagi duit JPA bulan2". waaaarggghhhh sentap! terdiam teros aku. hahaha. err, bukan tak sanggop bagi duwet, tapi tunggu da kije la naty mama, skang i ade keperluan sendiri taw, lalala~

adeii, busan la pulok da balek ni, lagi la tinggal aku sorang2 je ni.. da penat nengok tibi aku online, pastu buring tido plak..huhu baru 3 ari kat rumah aku rase waktu aku berjage satu hari x sampai pon 5 jam, .. the rest is history, eh the rest aku spend dengan titow je, yela, orang demam la katakan (hekeleh!! demam je pon, tido macam orang da nazak!!haktuih!!) -.-

tapi, tapi...aku gumbira la jugak, sebab ade lagy bende best yang nak dibuat, nak ngabeskan bace komik dr slump yang akak aku bawak balek dari kolej die, buku 1-18 weiii,,, peewitt! heaven2, pastu the book of tomorrow pon aku tak abes bace lagy, x sampai ati nak abeskan, sebab telalu best! hehehe, cite die ni pasal tamara goodwin yang dulunya kaya raya and sosial gile tepakse bepindah ke kawasan country and tinggal ngan mak cik pak cik dia, sebab ayah dia da bunuh diri and bancrupt. tapi kat tempat ni dia explore satu dunia baru, terjumpa dengan satu buku yang magical yang bagitau dia ape yang belaku kat dia hari esoknya. pergh bace cite adventure camni aku jadik teruja sekejap. kan best kalau keliling rumah aku ni cam dalam cite tu, ade hutan, secret garden, castle, huh. xdela boring sangat idop aku. ini tak, semak lalang je hader, waaa weekend ni kene pakse tolong ayah mesin rumput. ngade2 gak ayah aku ni, die kate saje bagi rumput tu tumbuh panjang-panjang, baru sedap nak mesin. bule pulok gitu! ades la ayahku.

anywayyy, mak aku takderk mention lagy pasal suro blaja masak, so aku selamat lagy lar setakat neh, ehehe..tapi ini tak bemakne bliau akan melupekan langsong hal ini, sementelah ade plak tali barut jepun (akak aku) yang suke sangat menghasut bliau, jadi aku perlu sentiase bejage-jage. (sambil pandang kiri kanan dengan mata penuh berwaspada)..

by the way, depan rumah aku ade jiran baru skang, orang singapore, tak sempat nak usha lagy ade anak laki ensem ke tak, nanty da abes ngintip aku habaq lagy, waa excited pulok de jiran baru, kalau de sebaya aku okay gak, bule wat geng, selama ni keliling rumah aku semenye bebudak kecik jek, takkan la aku nak join dorang maen, jatoh standard la bhai. hahaha

oke larr, nak gi mamam nasik jap, mak i da panggel da tu nak suap, kuang3, till then.

p/s : urghh...saye rindu kengkawan sayer...saye rindu nak bebual gan orang2 dewase (da dewase la plak) bukan gan bebudak kecik jek..sob2..

this is it..

"i'm coming home. i'm coming home. tell the world that i'm coming home. let the rain washed away all the pain of yesterday."

finally. it's the end of my time here in k1 for this sem. gonna be a on a very loongg holiday at home. what to do for 4 months? well, bina badan obviously. =P apart from that, i have a duty to learn how to cook from my mak. kalau tak tak ley kawen bai, haha (err pengaroh sape la ni). 

pejam celik, pakai bukak contact lens, tak sangka pulak da habis 2nd year. nex semester i will be a third year student. and after 2 full sem, urghh,, tesis menantiii... -.- . i dont know about you, but for me, i do feel that time really flies fast here. it moves so fast i think i had almost loses the real track of time. and as the time goes, so do my life. well, honestly, 2nd year was a year of experience. i gain a lot of new knowledge, met with awesome people, see new things, handle big and awesome programs - and going through the ups and downs of life.  

life as a 2nd year biomedical sc student was incredible. especially when you have got a bunch of wonderful people surrounded you. to be honest-- i have gone through a really depressing time trying to adapt to studies while handling programs at the same time, tell you what, i almost didnt know myself anymore at that time--but these people, they never pushed me away. instead, they approached me, trying to comfort me, giving me love, new hope, and the warmest hug a person can give. i dont think i could ever return their kindness. ever.

i'm not so confident with talking, so sometimes i really had a hard time trying to compose words to express my true feelings. even so, even if i dont say it, i'm sure they already know. right guys?

so, 3rd year awaits. what to expect after this ?  hurmm, i think i'm just going to live it. and just go with the flow. live my life happily as always, and will never do drugs, hahaa
happy holiday peeps! thanks for reading this until the very end of it. love ya! hugs and kisses, muaxx~

p/s : to corabians and all the future 3rd year biomedician--->> till we meet again after 4 months, InsyaAllah. =)
gosh! i'm gonna missssss you guys like crazyyyyyy!! urghhhh..

remember me =)

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