hiatus

urm...gonna be on hiatus for approximately five days...remember the operasi khidmat masyarakat i was talking about ages ago? well, we're finally going now. urm, but i dont really wanna go actually. if not because of the feeling to take on my own responsibility, i dont think i will be going. i just dont feel like going. well, its just that its kinda awful to be left out here at college all alone when all of my buddies were at their cozy home already. i know i asked for this, but somehow, anyhow im really starting to regret this. oh why oh why did i agree to get involve in this?? haishhh

well, anyway, thats what i felt. im not going to lie about my feelings here. and my blog wont be called my blog if its not about whining and complaining and sighing and regretting my everyday life, lol

huaahh,and i know there's only a week left before the mid sem exam, but i cannot study now. my mind is still not at its right place. i need motivation. i need pressure. and the pressure will only come on the first paper's eve. only at that time will i get motivated. awful right, i know, but its on my gene already, i cant do nothing about it =P

urm, so what else is there to babble about? oh yeah, just so you know, this opkim thingy will be held at kg balai besar, dungun, terengganu. my mak says terengganu was at the midst of flood crisis now. i wonder if this place we're going gonna be flooded too or not, oh hopefully it wont be. i cant imagine of having to deal with the flood and risking my life of getting infected with leptospirosis, scabies and whatnots (i am paranoid. i know) oh lets pray everything gonna be okay. as ameer khan says in three idiots, quoting all iz well all iz well unquoting so yeah, im gonna be optimistic like him too

i guess i will end my rant here. see you in a week, oh and selamat tahun baru cina =) and take care!

aww these delicious cup cakes make my mouth watery alright, urm nak masak megi la, dada!


kejadah ape????

di satu pagi yang hening di kala aku bersemangat gile nak online (sebab biase pagi-pagi tenet laju, tak lembabun cam bese sebab tak ramai online kan)... selepas aku menekan tetikus (literally, sebab aq takdek mouse)lantas membuka tab facebook pada browser google chrome ku....tiba-tiba...urff.....
terserlahlah pemandangan ini di hadapanku.....


yaaa...mungkin ada yang tertanya apa yang tidak kenanya dengan pemandangan ini..semuanya nampak seperti biasa..tapi tidak, tidak bagiku.....sob3...
berkecai hati sanubariku tatkala melihat wall facebook ku telah berubah wajah....tanpa kerelaanku pulak tu!!!
cesh!! selama ini aku biarkan saja teman-temanku yang lain menukar profile mereka, bagiku aku akan tetap berpegang pada prinsipku, untuk stick pada profile yang lama...ya! kerna aku menyukai decorationnya! aku menyukai reka letak susunannya, bagiku tiada apa yang tidak kena dengan design lama itu...

tapi facebook...dengan tidak berperikemanusiaanya telah sesukahati menukar profile ku..tanpa kerelaan hati ini! perbuatan mereka ini ibarat meludah ke kandang lembu, menganggap aku hanya sekadar melukut di tepi gantang, tanpa mahu langsung berhenti memikir apa yang aku mahukan, apa yang aku pentingkan..

sungguh tidak rasional mereka ini. apa guna harta berbilion dolar tetapi perikemanusiaan dibuang ke tepi..

sob2...beginilah nasib menjadi pengguna...tiada yang mahu peduli, tiada yang mahu simpati

p/s : kalau aku mengadu kat FOMCA agak2 bule dapat balek ark profile lame??
p/s/s :  mark zuckerberg sucks! =P *tetibe


kat blog pon bule tag orang... *jakun*





dengan banggenye nak bitau aku telah ditag oleh ikha budak gangster, dan dengan senang hati juga aku menjawab tag ini, kerna kebosanan yang enak bangat..


"Once you have been tagged,you are suppose to write a note, with 25 random thing, fact, habits or goal about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tag you, it's because I want to know more about you. Your cooperation is highly appreciated.


menatang ni aku cilok kat blog adik ikha one'e..sebab blog ikha x mengizinkan aku utk mengkopi ayat2 di situ..copyright issue barangkali? anyways maseh adek ikha...harhar


and..here it goes :


25 random things, facts, habits or goal about me

  1. tak banyak cakap..tak suka cakap banyak..sebab takde benda yang nak dicakapkan..even dengan memembe rapat n family pon...
  2. keturunan jawa belah mak, tapi suku kata bahasa jawa yg diketahui tak lebih dari 10 patah perkataan sahaje..
  3. suka makan ayam...rase bule mati kalau tak dapat ayam sehari..lau tak dak duwet beli amek bawu pon jadi..huhu
  4. agak pemalu yang keterlaluan kadang2... especially when there's hot guys strangers around =P
  5. suka kucing...tapi yg bersih and comel jew, yg kotor i tak layan sangat, germs..(busuk ati kan?)
  6. dulu penah bela kucing name popi (1st kucing pernah dipelihara, curik dari rumah org sebelah sekola) sebab time kecik2 dulu jahat, bila popi x denga arahan aku picit/pulas ekor bliau sampai tulang ekor jadik bengkok..so sampai skrg keturunan popi sume berekor bengkok..erk!
  7. egoistik tinggi tahap dewa dewi..sanggup pamer muka expressionless dari excited sebab nak jage imej..tu yg kdg2 muka aku x derk perasaan, huahua
  8. dilahirkan ngan muka sombong (sob2..) plus rabon jaoh tahap gaban, so bile x pakay spec x nampak orang, org senyum ke sengih ke sumpa aku x nmpak..oleh yg demikian mereka menganggap aku sumbung...sedey taww..
  9. pakai contact lens...bila contact lens expired sanggup x pakai spec, sebab bile pakai spec keyakinan diri aku menjunam ke ground level, (xley bla, i noe2 =D)
  10. urm..pas spm dulu dapat offer JPA masuk INTEC, amek ausmat, InsyaAllah further lam medic..tapi x g sebab mak ayah tak bagi.. (ade org tanye why bother applying klau da tau family takkan approve..well, there r certain things that r better left unanswered, or in other words, eh suka aku la, nak sebok2 pehal??) hakhak
  11. obsessed ngan hallyu (korean wave) dulu drama je, skrg ngan k pop pon aku gile. uhh!! g dragon...!!!lebiu lebiu
  12. aa ape lagi? haa aku suke ditake care and dimanjakan..hahaha rase hepi bile kua jalan ngan along (akak aku) bliau memegang tanganku ke mana2, rase selamat ooo, lol
  13. bila balik rumah cuti, time malam tido tak penah tutup lampu bilik bila along aku takde (aku share bilik gan bliau) sebab kalau gelap aku akan start pike mcm2..hantu syaitan jin dan yg seangkatan dengannye..lol
  14. dulu sangat bercita-cita nak jadik pelukis...tapi terpaksa dilupakan sebab takdek bakat..sob2
  15. suka math......tapi hanya jika soalan itu mampu aku selesaikan...wahahaha
  16. time sekola dulu aku cakap aku benci subjek sejarah (sebab memembe yang lain benci) tapi sebenanye aku suke gileee!!!!! saje taknak ngaku sebab nk jage imej..haha
  17. time form 1 dulu satu kelas budak pompuan aku temasuk aku nyaress nak kene gantung sekolah.......sebab bukak website porn kat makmal komputer (oke, sila jgn salah paham dulu, website yg kitorg bukak dulu adalah pasal group TATU,ala yg popular gan lagu all the things she said uw, time tahun 2003 dulu kan dorg nga popular, so kitorg saje la nk nengok gambo dorg, ne tawu de gmba2 yg tak sepatotnye kat situ)so org yg in charge lab ni pon dpt detect la terdapat website yg x proper dibukak oleh student, n kitorg ditrace berdasarkan buku log, haha naseb la x kene kick oii, sumpa pas incident tu aku teros jadik skema =P
  18. pernah dapat award skema gurl time dinner batch form 2... see? see? betol kan aku cakap aku teros jadik skema, hahaha
  19. dalam dunia ni cume sorg manusia je yg penah rotan aku...cikgu sekola agama aku. rotan aku sebab aku sembunyikkan pembares yg bliau suka gunakan utk hentak kat meja suh kitorang diam, even kalau kitorg senyap pon..bingit tau x!!! anyway petang tu aku jadik hero classmates aku, hahaha
  20. aku pon suke bace majalah and sotkabo dari belakang gak myhatiku!!! kita serupa~ huhu
  21. time lecture aku suka salen notes bagai nak rak, tapi haram taknah sentuh pon, time nak exam pon aku bace nota yg dprint out jela, yg aku salen tu wat bungkos nasik lemak, haha
  22. suke download movie bebanyak..tapi jarang ditengok...
  23. suke movie animation and genre fantasy...ade membe ckp aku x realistik..takpela,sebab bnde2 x realistik ni wat aku kurang stress..
  24. abes blaja nanti sumpa aku tanak keje dalam lab....haha aku nak kije yg bule bawak aku travel..and once i get my own phd (InsyaAllah) im so gonna get my butt out of this country, make a marvellous income, marry the man of my dream, take my families,parents along with me, and create our own fairytale.. and i AM serious =)
  25. .................................aku gemuk. 

there myhatiku!!! done!! urf can we skip the part of tagging 25 other people? urm because you see, org yg aku kenal yg ade blog tak sampai pon 5 orang, and 4/5 dari mereka suda pon ditag oleh kamu.so..yeah =)





in..in.. dependable??

hello there..
uhh sometimes i wish i could be more independent.. rather than being too dependable on others
all this time i have been depending so much on other people in my life, name it family members, friends, ketua pengawas (?) lecturers, et cetera, et cetera
and its not fun though, it makes me feel so weak, and that really upsets me..sob2.. why cant i be like those courageous people in my life? be courageous and outgoing like mak,be patient and calm like ayah, be cool like abang wan, be independent and strong-hearted like along? well, being with these people makes me feel safe, secured, and beloved, i want to make other people feel like that when they're with me too..
but then, uhhh me is just me, changing is not as simple as learning ABC.. it needs time, needs a lot of patience, and most of all, belief.

...urm, and i dont think i have them....



p/s : jpa da masok jpa da masok jpa da masok jpa da masok jpa da masok jpa da masok jpa da masok, urgh but i dont get to buy my top listed barang  =(  ....yet. oh well maybe some other time


saranghaeyo!

mode : melancholic

alhamdulillah..
di saat aku sikit je lagi nak jatuh menyembam bumi,
masih ada mak untuk menenangkan hati yang vulnerable ni..
ada seorang mak yang buat  aku kembali berdiri teguh balik..
ada mak yang sentiasa buat aku rasa disayangi, rasa ada tempat bergantung..

haha, dari rase nak koyak2 and conteng banner tadi kepada rasa gumbira hendak melukisnyaa
iyah iyah!! sabo derr...x lame lagi daa  =)

saranghaeyo mak!! if only you knew how much love this tiny heart has for you..  =(

this is how you photographed life!!










note to myself : there's a beautiful world outside there! make ways to them someday!! this is a promise!

go away!

lonely?
i think thats the perfect word to describe myself
all i could think right now is how pathetic my life is
being far from my old self
have no confidence even to live like a normal human being
but then the question is, how do we define normal?
something that most of the society have in common?
who sets the normal measurement then?
dont everybody thinks that its cruel to judge others?
what gives us that authority?
people have no rights to degrade others
they have no rights to look down
they have no rights to give orders
thinking that they hold such authorities, such power
who do you think you are?
we are nothing difference with each other
what differentiate us is how we appear to be in front of the GOD.
so you are nothing to me
nor do you mean anything to the others
dont hate me, dont hate life
hate you. hate yourself

and please..
for this once..
just...

back off.

....hawa nafsu. oh and hasad dengki  =)

the pic's here cuz it's adorable, really,no significant purpose at all =P

i wish i could live my life like a musical =)

good songs are like drugs. you get addicted to them. sometimes when you are in trouble, when you're miserable, when you feel alone, when you feel hopeless, and even in times when you do not know what to think or how exactly do you feel.....well, this kind of songs, it just boost you up. =)

i appreciate beautiful music. i really do. didnt matter to me if it's sang in different language. because music, well..... how should i say it, it's international. we all understand them. if there's a thing that could connects us in this world, well, trust me, it's music.
and here's one really good piece of music that i really enjoyed listening to nowadays. cheers =)





p/s : well, never been such a fan of a girl's k pop group before, but i think i will now, lol =)

third time's a charm..

woot woot~
we're already on the third week of the 2nd sem. and this is what i could conclude :

1. Another class with Pak Kas, another sem full with dirty jokes
ok, like seriously. memang laa aku ni agak direct and open bila becakap pasal "benda2-u-know-what" ni ngan memembe, malah kadang2 aku boleh jadik lebih tak tau malu dari membe aku tuan (which is well known for her loose tongue when it comes to that) tapi. alahaiiii aku tak penah la plak tepike nak go deeper, u know what i mean? haha its true pak kas is a real genius, but sometimes (most of the time, actually) memang aku tak leh nak terima la lawak 80sx beliau neh. terlalu lalu la radikal wa cakap luu. and even lawak beliau yang tak 80 sx pon sampai skang aku tak leh nak paham. so, aku memang seriously tak TAU ape yang wat membe2 aku gelak cam hape bile pak kas "buat lawak" . hah, which surprises me, because all this time aku ingat level lawak aku ngan si sazwana and rabiatul adawiyah nie same! so, so, really, something wrong ngan aku ke diorang? ha? ha?

2. When anatomy is not in the list of the subject i have to take this year, i thought my nightmare was over, but..
hell yeah. i never thought i'll be having another dreaded class this sem, but as the saying goes, sometimes your at the top, and sometimes your at the bottom. but this time around, i really feel like i was in a mulut harimau. urghh yeah, dalam hati aku aku panggil beliau ni harimau. tatau la kenapa, sebab harimau garang kowt. tapi really, the first thing yang came across my mind after seeing him was harimau. uuuu
(ok2 post kali ni bukan nak mengutuk lecturer2 aku, tapi aku menceritakan ape yg aku rase semate-mate je, sila jgn pike negatif pasal saye ye, saye still budak baek, yang kadang2 suka rebel je, hihi)
ok sambung. urm aku ni jenis yang agak susah kot nak tido dalam kelas (yeyeo!!). even kalau ngantok tahap dewa pon besenye aku bule control je. tapi bile dalam kelas beliau ni, even aku tak ngantok pon otomatik bule jadi ngantok. sebab suasana yg takde bunyik satu, pastu pasal suara bliau yg agak mendodoi ni pon punce die gak, selaen tu frequency kerdipan mata aku pon aku tepakse kurangkan time klas ni, takot oo bliau ingat aku tdo kang tak pepasal aku kene baham. aaa tak suke la kelas camneh, sob3...


3. Mimi makin comel?
err err aku pike lapan ploh kali before taip neh, tapi tape la, lau tak member sendrik puji sape agi nak kan? kan?
realitinya, mimi selama ni memang kepoh. and bising. and kadang2 annoying sket laa (tapi aku tetap sayang ko) tapi baru2 ni dari annoying aku rase act die ni sebenanye kiut. wahahahahhhhh awww geli plak.
aku cakap je aku tak suke ko panggel lolot tu mi, tapi senanye dalam atiku berbunga bunga, ngaaa sebab name tu cam cumel la, hahaha..
back to the point, selame ni bukan ko tak kiut mi, tapi maybe sebab aku tanah amek pusing pasal ko, then baru2 ni ntah cane tetibe ko muncul dlm idup aku (xley bla,haha) , so sbb tu kowt aku ase camtu, btw maapkan aku sbb tak bape nak menyedari kewujudan ko sebelom neh, kakaka
p/s : senanye neh saje je ni, kunun nak ucap time kaseh kat ko la sbb pomot blog aq, terpulang la ko nak caye yg kat atas2 ni or tak, aku tak kesah pon,miahahaha


4. ape orang sanggup buat bile da takde duwet..
yay! dengan banggenye aku nak bitau JPA TAK MASOK-MASOK LAGI. ye!! hah pade sesape kakitangan JPA yang bace mende ni (hekeleh bajet ade, ingat blog ko neh utusan.com.my?!!) silalah rase malu oke! kerna sebab anda kegiatan jenayah dan tak bermoral maken meningkat di sekeliling aku ni!
antaranya : mengemis makanan orang laen! dah jadi semacam trend untuk sesetengah orang, bila pagi2 je or petang2 je nampak ade membe laen (even yang tak rapat pon) menjinjing sebuah plastik merah berisi polistrin berisi makanan, mule la nak bising," ooii si polan, aku nampak makanan wess" huhu begitu la tak tau malunye, sampai aer milo si polan tersebut pon menjadi mangsa kebuasan sesetengah orang ini juga. dan si polan pon kembali ke tempatnya dengan wajah pilu akibat pemerasan ugut yang berlaku ini. jadi hadirin, bila tak de duwet, manusia jadi gila. dan bila mereka gila, mereka sanggop buat ape sahaja untuk melampiaskan kegilaan itu. jangan biarkan anak-anak anda menjadi mangsa. oleh itu, silalah dan tolonglahhh bank in JPA cepaaatttttt....!!!!! wooooo makkkkk...!!! sob3..

5. banyak sangat program disertai buat kite rase nak bakar kolej
nie aq sorang je kowt rase. sumpah bile da stressed gile rase nak bakar something je. tapi conscience aku mengatakan jangan kerna ia boleh mengundang musibah pada banyak orang. jadik instead dari bakar benda aku pon pg baka (badan pengurusan akademik kat tingkat 2) n mengurat abang hensem kat situ. lol



SEKIAN.
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