politikus opiskus sp

Malaysia menang gol tapi kalah agregat woi. Aku okay je sebab rsa player sume main bagus malam ni. cuma tak de rezeki nak menang, nak buat cemana.

by the way sungguh la lama belog ini tidak ku bukak. bukan update ok, tapi BUKAK. update memang kirem salam la bile dah keje ni. laptop pon bukak sebulan sekali, leulz. skrin siap bersawang.

anyway aku dah selamat bekerja hampir setaun, so far boleh la saving sikit2 untuk plan masa hadapan (yang masih tak tau ape plan itu, tapi kita simpan je la untuk safety precaution kan). all i can say is, bila dah kerja ni memang tak de ruang untuk ko menjadi blur. kalau kau degil mahu blur, maka terimalah kata-kata makian dari para "super seniors yang bajet takde buat salah langsung" secara dalam talian (yakni Internet Messenger).

tempat aku kerja kalau dorang x puas hati memang pakat ngumpat kat IM je, pastu lalu depan kau buat muka pelek. haha boo la sama kau! dah tua pon nak amalkan lagi perangai ketidakmatangan seperti ini.

tapi aku pon sama je XD

haha politik opis kau, di mana-mana pon serupa. kau kerja dekat pejabat agama ke, balai polis ke, or kelab malam, for sure wujud punya konflik. selagi manusia yang bertuhankan napsu pegang jawatan, selagi tulah mende ni pasti ada. gittew.

aku actually tak terkesan pon dengan benda-benda gini. yela kat opis aku ni hanya makhluk picisan saja, orang tak tegur aku aku buat hal sendiri je, janji kerja aku siap (walau hakikatnya jarang dapat siap on time/off time), so tak kisahlah kau nak mengumpat aku ke, nak buat muka taik depan aku ke, or nak buat aku ni invisible aku rasa aku tak kan kesah pon. sebab aku pon buat benda yang sama dekat kau lahanat!! kakakakaka

sorry la, aku kalau tengah2 menaip tetibe beremosi memang cenggini. menambah dosa orang yang baca entry ini pula (hai hasnieza), hahahahaha

tapi kutuk-kutuk aku, marah dan memaki aku, aku tetap sayang job ni, first job, first interview kerja wei, sape tak sayang! gaji pon cukop la buat menampung kehidupan tak seberapa aku ni, hahaha. so sebab tu sekarang aku dah belajar tak nak amik pusing apa orang lain nak pikir pasal aku. (belajar ok!sebab fitrah hidup aku dilahirkan memang species sensitif, semua benda aku nak terasa) - I FEEL TOO MUCH, but think less XD
so aku harap lepas ni kalau ditakdirkan dapat kerja lain ke apa, at least sistem immunity aku terhadap species manusia-manusia jelmaan iblis ini (aku dah kata, bila aku beremosi aku cenderung untuk menggunakan kata-kata yang berunsurkan kecelakaan, haha) sudah terbina kukuh,so takdela first day kena marah nanti meraung-raung beli tiket balik pandan indah. eh

poyos la entry kalini
tapi bila masa pula tak pernah poyos ?XD

kla adioss
(da la x bagi salam)

Aku yang menggunakan pekerjaan sebagai disguise untuk mengusya jejaka2 sador di MYTAR hahaha

I'm all messed up

Seriously.

What is the purpose of you waking up everyday?

Working? Well, working is essential because it helps pays the bills

Eating? Eating is essential too, who am I kidding?

Meeting people? Being a social retard myself, I'd rather skip that part but clearly, that was not an option, not ever.

So, really? What's the real deal? What's the actual purpose of waking up everyday? What if the actual purpose of living?
That is, if we ever gets to wake up everyday again..

What if someday there's no more morning? What if someday you're no longer breathing? Hell, couldnt imagined it but it will come eventually.

The day where we all will no longer be a living being. 
The day when you will finally see the things beyond your current life.
The day when you will no longer have a day.
The day when you will no longer have a life
Urghh, scary, isnt it?

I'm scared. Understatement. Hell, I freaked out just thinking about it.
But yet, I'm still here, preferred to being consumed by my own scary thoughts rather than doing anything. Which is so very wrong..

Seriously. What is the actual f*** is wrong with me?

Damn I'm too exhausted to figure it out on my own




What do you mean?

How old are you now? Me? I turned 23 last June.
   Really? So how's it feel being an adult? My feeling, you say? Urm, nothing much changed. Just doing the same old thing, managing same old stuff.
     Oh? What you doing now? Urm..I'm working.
What? Where? I thought you said you wanted to further studies? Shhh..that's just between you and me. Lets just say I've lost interest to continue studying.
           Uhhm thats sad.. What's sad? Me? I dont feel sad. In fact I feel completely happy with my choice. With my life now.
             Well are you? I am. Truly I am happy now.

                                                      ******************
What's with that expression? Uhh sorry, I just don't take you as a person who can be satisfied with only having this, and not getting what you really wanted.
      Well, guess you're wrong. I guess I am..
                  I mean, you're wrong in terms of perceiving what is it that I really wanted. Oh? What do you mean? I've known you for ages. During that period you've been telling me about your dream of studying until you get the highest recognition from everyone.
          I did huh? Yes. You did. So what happen now?

I guess I lied. *laugh* What? You lied about wanting to further studies? That doesnt make any sense.
     It doesnt. But I'm not talking about furthering studies anymore now. I'm talking about lying to your question just now. What? What are you saying exactly? Which question?

I'm sorry I lied to you before. I guess being and adult did change me a lot *smile*

*HAPPINESS IS NOT ALWAYS ABOUT GETTING THE THINGS THAT YOU WANTED.
        SOMETIMES IT IS ABOUT GIVING SOMEONE ELSE THE THING THAT THEY NEEDED. :)


DBT, 18/12/13, 9.58 pm
signing off.

Behind the clouds, there's always the sun


It's a cloudy day. Then slowly the rain starts to pour. You're getting ready to get off to work. Clothes has been ironed, shoes are clean, then when you walked outside the waters soaked your clothes. Your clean shoes picking up dirts. You starting to curse silently. Hating the rain, hating the weather. People walked past by you, you give them a glare. You're hating everyone.

It was supposed to be a normal day. A usual walk to your work place. But then when the rain started falling down, it changes everything.

Walking down the road, under the broken umbrella, you started to think how much unfortunate can this day become when a speeding car splashes a whole bucket of water towards you. This time you cursed very loudly. You yelled at the driver, but because it was blurry and noisy due to the weather, not even one soul stopped to care. Not even the speeding driver.

You're now drenched in wet. You're started to cry. You thought to yourself how your prediction was right. How this is really not your day. You were supposed to reach office by five minutes, but because of the rain, because of all the unfortunate events the rain "had" caused, you're going to be yelled by your boss too. You hated the rain so much, for what it had caused you, to the point of you yelling at the sky, angrily. Blaming everything on the rain, on the stupid weather, said you.

Then suddenly a boy reached out for your hand. Opening your palms, he put on it a flower. A real one, not a plastic flower you often find at your office, or even your house. That boy then gives you a sweet, pure smile, telling you not to be mad, because it will make your face looks less prettier. You accepted the flower, hold it in your hand, while staring at the strange boy with a perplexed look for the longest period of time before he finally walked away, leaving you alone.

The rain still pours heavily. A lot of puddles were formed on the road. You reached the office so late you were scolded big time by the boss.

But at the end of the day, a flower blooms beautifully in a vase on your table. And looking up the mirror, you can see a beautiful smile plastering all over a beautiful face.

"Thank you, boy. It's not so bad a day after all."

The End.


"It's not about how life treating you. It's about how you treated your life"
@ copyrights DBT Dec 2013
11.28 pm
signing off.

Strangers



I open my eyes everyday with the same feeling I had with me the other day. Dont you think it's such a wonder? We drift off to sleep every night, not knowing, sometimes not even care, if we would be able to wake up again and see the light of the new day. We have been living like this for so many years that we're now taking our own lives just for granted.

Life is a bless. So does being able to breathe, to pump up blood and oxygen, to eat, to move our limbs, to act involuntarily, and to function normally.

I remember when I used to walk along the road of Masjid Jamek. Seeing the incapable, the blinds, the amputees, trying to meet their ends meet. It was saddening. Although they looked okay, but not for us, the ables. We tend to think how awful their lives must have been. Imagined not being able to see, to hear, to talk, or to use our limbs properly. We empathized with them. But was that enough? We then gave them the cheapest note from our purse, hoping that would make their lives for that day ended better, but in all honesty, what did we knew? We left the road, feeling proud with our own conscience and good deed, but how about their own feelings? At the end of the day, we're all still strangers.

"Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile" - Albert Einstein

All of our lives we have wanted so many things. We see others own something that we don't have. We grew jealousy. And it is in the nature of human being to wanted to achieve equality with the others. That is why certain ideologies that promoted equality for every man kinds erupted and influenced a great number of people before. The idea seems noble and legit. But only for he who is driven by greed. There is not one worthwhile idea if it doesn't comes from Al-Quran and As-Sunnah. Rasulullah clearly stated this in his last khutbah. As long as we depends everything on both of them, we will be lead to a straight path.

"We were born to lead. To be khilafah on His earth. To spread da'wah. To live in Deen."

Life offers us with great opportunities. Often so many that we were not able to catch up. But have you yet realized what the greatest opportunity is out there? The one that we should have grabbed at instant. It took me some times to figure it out.

It is the opportunity to serve, my friend, most and foremostly, to HIM. He owns you. He owns us. He owns everything. With that said, who in their right mind would not want to become closer to him? "Don't ever let ourselves become strangers with our own creator." Points to ponder.

Wallahualam
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