DaLaM hAtI aDa TaMAn

dont want to lose it

6:20 PM by Iman

We played a game for fun.

I was asked about the memories that I would choose to forget.

and my answer was, if I could, I wanted to erase the memories of that day. that Friday. that Ramadhan. I chose to forget it because remembering it is painful. too sad. too heartbroken. and I dont want to feel any pain. I dont want to be sad. I dont want to feel heartbroken anymore..

but now when I think about it again..

that memory..it's a thing that puts myself together everytime I feel like splitting away.

it's the thing that reminded me that I have people that I still need to care about, to love with all of my heart, at home... people who I called family. family members that I'd vowed to make them happy no matter what.

this memory..although it's so painful..I realized that I'm not willing to lose it yet.

at least I could show to some people that unlike them, I am brave enough, strong enough to hold onto these memories. that I am willing to go through with the pain..coz letting go of these memories, is one coward act. and I'm not a coward. my father raised me to stand strong, head held high no matter what the circumstances are.

so I will never back down. I will make him proud. I promise..

1st of May. his birthday. Allah, please give me strength to visit him at his home. I missed him so much..I missed him so much..

phobes..

11:37 PM by Iman

bercakap tentang ketakutan, ramai orang ada phobia mereka masing-masing.

takut hantu, labah-labah, air, ketinggian..etc

aku? aku termasuk salah seorang yang takut pada banyak benda..

takutkan tikus, gelap, laut dalam, petir, hantu..and banyak la lagi..

tapi....baru-baru ni aku discover yang aku ni mempunyai satu ketakutan yang baru...

iaitu ketakutan kepada.........

kalau takut sempit claustrophobia. takut tinggi acrophobia. takutkan twitter? titewphobia? err whateverrrr :p

A reminder

10:25 PM by Iman

kena tambah parameter? redha je.

kena repeat test yang sama hari-hari sampai nak buat test dah tak payah tengok procedure lagi? knew it by heart already? redha je.

sampel tak cukup nak run test? redha je.

result test tak pernah cantik? redha je. redha.

:) apa perlu gundah. apa perlu meroyan, naik status kat facebook bagai. kalau tension hadap lah Tuhan. pinta pada Tuhan. kalau sedih carilah Tuhan. menangis depan Tuhan. apa guna minta pada manusia? menagih kasih manusia?

kejar cinta manusia, manusia akan mati. tapi Allah pulak akan sentiasa ada. turn to Him. He's always here. :)

bolayan

10:46 AM by Iman

alkisah di sebuah kaunter ppsp..

aku : salam cik ##. saya nak bagi borang order bahan kimia baru. err sebab kena tambah parameter baru

cik ## : oo k2. sapa ya ppsp kamu?

aku : puan ##. dengar cerita dia tak sihat cuti seminggu ye cik. nak tanya la jadi kami ni macam mana? ada ppsp lain yang gantikan puan ## ke? sebab minggu ni saya ingat nak order barang.

cik ## : yang tu saya tak tau (angkat bahu). kitorang yang lain ni pon sumenye busy. so memang tak boleh nak buat apa la.

aku : diam sentap

cik ## : (sedar telah memwatkan aku diam sentap) bukan tak tau, tapi memang tak boleh buat apa. sebab dia cuti sakit.

aku : (demi memelihara keamanan sejagat) oh kalau camtu takpelah cik ##. time kasehh yee.

O_o concern. even if it doesnt concerns you, try to at least give a decent answer. even if you dont care, act like you care. this is all soft skills. pffttt

paranoia

2:23 PM by Iman

Greetings.

baru 1 jam cecah KL. azam dah berkobar-kobar nak habiskan lab cepat. nak graduate on time. nak carik kerja gaji besor.

balik tido ngan mak. tengok wajah tua mak. peluk mak time mak tido. dalam lubuk hati tau bila-bila masa Allah boleh tarik balik semua tu.

jadi sekarang boleh jalan dengan semua masalah. aku nak jadi positip. by the end of this month. result MDA, GSH, SOD, AOPP, FRAP, GST, HISTO and PROTEIN. semua kena complete.

kalau tak tercapai dek akalku, saksi-saksi sekelian. SILA HUMBANKAN AKU KE DALAM LOBANG PENUH TIKUS (bukan Sprague Dawley atau Wistar tapi Rattus Domesticus)

sekian, amigo